I feel lost taking this strange path. I’m searching for myself in this faceless crowd. I’m breathless from trying to escape this darkness. Fear is building up inside as it tries to consume my dreams, my hope, and my faith. I’m drowning in this past-crazy-faced life. I am weighed down by everything and nothing. My mind is a mess because of the people telling me what I should and shouldn’t do. I’m excessively wounded. They crushed my heart, though they weren’t able to break it, though it healed, and just scarred. That heart of mine will never be the same again. And my soul, it is on the brink, not being able to do anything as its light gradually weakens. Isn’t this enough? Please let this be enough, let me regain myself and my strength.
Although you never left me, I’m sorry for being the one who let go and lost the way. Now I’m losing myself, and the one I should be. It’s You that keeps me going. I never believed in promises, but I believe in Your word. I still believe in the plans You have for me. Thus, I trust that You will search for me once again. I’ll be right here, holding on to whatever shade of light left inside. Enlighten me once again. Let me see You in everyone, and in everything there is in this world. Let me open up as You reach out to this unworthy child of Yours. Cleanse me with Your merciful and loving heart. Let me believe again in life, and love. I only want to be found by You, and be wrapped again in the tenderness of Your arms. Bless me with the love that never cease. It’s Your unconditional love my God, that's all i ever needed...
